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Friday, April 30, 2004

hmmm... hiyee... long time no blog...mani mani tings juZ kept happenin which sort of hurted and anger mi ... i juZ dunno wad to do lor...reali... i reali reali cant stand it le... haiZ... all the probs... piled up inside mi...

hmmm...yesterdae wasn't my dae ba...when i came to sch...ms toe(dunno how spell) catch mi fer taggin out shirt again... den i tryin to tag in lor, den she juZ use scotch tape to tape mi... haiZ... so damn tight ba... hate it... after sch den can take out...class ppl started callin mi funi names... wad x-men or wad x de...(wadever...)

den i so PISSED off coz... 38 and tat xiao qin hor... keep saein tat my b*****s beli big... its not lor... its coz the scotch tape... so so so PISSED....reali reali.... don care dem le... so ANGRY tinkin if tat..

den history... the sam boi lahx... kept disturbin mi... sae all the stupid comments tat i hate... den he was oso scoldin all the "bad words" ba... den i cant stand it le... i juZ ask him to shut up lyk tat... den he lyk ... nothing to sae ba... sorriieeee boi....

den after history... realised tat i lost my pencil box.... haiZ... i newly buy at the start of the year de lor.... i so ANGRY... haiZ... cant find...

den after sch... gort tuition... den gort SJAB pd meetin... den i need to find ms toe... and go back class to take my books(gotta clear table)... den i findin boxes... but no teachers gort lei...haiZ...

i went down fer meetin but meetin no start lor... den i ask ah bu accompany mi go see ms toe... den gort a hell lot of scoldin... den went down fer meetin... meetin not yet start... den i wait and wait... 1 pm le lor... den SJAB room open.. went in ... meetin dunno do wad de... pissed man... i was lyk told sam to take attendence fer mi le... den the P-D-O(vinson) was lyk 1.17pm den come it lor... and the time postpone to 1 pm and so mani ppl dunno lor... WTF! den they had their own conversations... den i missed the whole tuition... honestly speakin, i so PISSED tat i actually wanna cry it out... haiZ... den gort scoldin lor, fer juZ now not answerin vivien... but i was one of the few hu did answer her... WTF! i so PISSED...

after tat... juZ heard tat muZ hand cheer proposal by tml... den tml no time... meanin by todae... den so RUSHED... den i eat eat .... den "she" and Agnes juZ left... i actually goin oso de lor... den no byes or anything... juZ left... did ani one care...

den rhowena came and ask mi hand in the case study book... but i reali gort ... 2weeks after comp i hand in le lor... WTF... den i juZ walked away wif my no.4(yvonne) den i damn sad... den i tears juZ drop... no.4 console mi ... thx, no.4... den my sweetheart(ting2) came... den she oso console mi... thx lei.... u 2...

sad dae... does ani one understands mi...??? hmmm... guess not... no.4 and ting2 came my hse to do the proposal wif mi...till beli late... den they left le... den i so tired... haiZ... wad a DAMN dae it was...maybe tat's my life...byeZ...

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Sunday, April 25, 2004

todae... tuition cheena in the morning... sianZ... so tired... i so DISTRACTED lor...haiZ...walkin around the house...den ate noodles, not tat nice but still gotta eat no matter wad lah...

sianZ...stilll gotta one afternoon to spend...haiZ...heard may is P.O.P lei... i so so DAMN sad lei... i wanna dem back no matter wad...come back as mdm pump us, i don care...as long as they r back...i will be deeply happi le lor... no matter wad... haiZ... here i wish dem ALL THE BEST FER THEIR "0" LEVELS...

i dunno wad i should do...i finding all the nice songs...touchin sad songs.... burn dem into one disc fer my jie jie ba...Hope she will be HAPPI...~sianZ... tink i go sleep later...meanin rest... slept bout 6 plus hours onli... yesterday chat on the phone wif Jie Jie till quite "early" ba...BuaIZ... sianZ dae...

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~Lion Family~ find tat u gals reali rox cos i sucks... u gals rawks my world... cheer mi up wif yr L.A.M.E and funi ideas... hahax... alwaes enjoy going out together...

da jieZ~ u will alwaes be in the FAMILY.... sori fer everything...thx fer alwaes helpin me do work .... thx gal...by dere fer J.W alwaes....thx ,roxy...

2nd jieZ~ hahax... u and yr lame ideas... and hor, didn't ah bu teach u not to laugh so loudly... and don laugh when eatin....hahax... u simply laugh so damn much... hahax... makin me laugh toooo... hahax...rox on gal...~

3rd jieZ~hahax.... alwaes quarrellin wif u de... but is so damn fun ba... thx fer all, kaes... u and yr LAME stuff is lyk so wad ba... but cheers mi up aniwae... hahax... LAMO..alwaes against me...ah bu nv teach u disciple de...rox gal...~

4th jieZ~ cheer up, gal... be HAPPI alwaes wif .J.W.... joke wif her alwaes makin her happi... thx lei... i got no power to do so... thx gal... u and yr LAME LAME stuff and actions r some sort "stupid" ba... but ALWAES make ppl laugh de... rox gal...

Ah bu~u got don be so HORRIBLE ma...jkjk... hmmm, disciple yr children can not... all against mi alwaes... but they DAMN funi lor... hahax...u lyk 3 daes no sleep liao... tink u better go "zzZ" ... later ppl say i torture u ar... hahax... ah bu rox gal... thx fer all...>.<

Mel Mel~ thx gal... alwaes dere to console and comfort me... thx mel mel... u and tat 3rd jie alwaes against mi.... as alwaes... wad u say is true ba... we rox cos i sux... used to it liao... hahax... rox on my cat....meow...~

Jie Jie**cheerios, gal... hope u be HAPPI 4eva... don sad le...will be watchin over u from far... no matter wad... study hard... GOOD LUCK FER EVERYTHING, OF COS YR "0" LEVELS...........! ROX ON JIE JIE....`

Friday, April 23, 2004

todae...another tired dae...morning meet Jie Jie first again... hmmm, nv reali tok at all(again ba...)den we sit... she writing tat "diary" of ours... den pass to mi, i realised a spider on my bag...one got black strips, the rest is yellow..hmm, dere's one sec 1 boi sitting in front of mi lor... i juZ shoot it den it flew at its leg... Jie Jie and mi juZ kept laughing none stop... den she took my hand and wrote Spider rox! and i luv u! haiZ... funi... tat spider..

hmm, NAPFA all cancelled... rain so DAMN heavy lor... still wanna ask us to wait till bout 3.20pm den announced lor...WTF!nvm... hmmm, den sianZ lah ... den i so DAMN tired...

Raining so damn heavy... mi and my Honey Rhowena still go J8 ...the distance so much lei... the sch and the front bus-stop lor... wet till siao... got cold le lah...? my honey too... go dere eat abit onli lor... Waste my $$ de...! coZ i no appetitide... actually is not feelin rite... so damn COLD ma...haiZ...

den went home... so TIRED... haiZ...been nagged by granny again...haiZ... don reali bother liao... tired again... gotta rest...

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Thursday, April 22, 2004

hmmm, todae juZ not my dae again...so TIRED... every step i move, my muscles juZ ache so damn MUCH ba...!i don even wish to move at all...~haiZ...
been quite sad... but the damn 38 again, she disturb mi again, drawin on my hand, hai me get scolded by mrs wong, spray water at mi, sort of cheered mi up...but no energy ba... at all...

after sch, juZ go out wif Sam boi ba...its our 1 month le... went to watch"into the mirror"... wif Edmund and Wei Liang...hmm, wanna thx boi fer today's food and movie tickets.. but i actually veri tired...i juZ drag myself to go...TIRED.... muscles ache so MUCH...! i don even noe is tml NAPFA or when... wadever... dun wanna run... strengthless...

hmmm, i cant take it anymore... no energy fer anything lor, honestly... haiZ... wanna end it lor...but the journey is way toooo LONG lor...i HAD ENOUGH...!
life suck rite to the core....sad dae...

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Jie Jie` sori... i gif up le...nth more or less...

Wednesday, April 21, 2004

Sometimes-Britney Spears

You tell me you're in love with me
That you can't take your pretty eyes away from me
It's not that I don't want to stay
But everytime you come too close I move away
I wanna believe in everything that you say
Cuz it sounds so good
But if you really want me, move it slow
There's things about me you just have to know

Chorus:
Sometimes I run
Sometimes I hide
Sometimes I'm scared of you
But all I really want is to hold you tight
Treat you right, be with you day and night
Baby all I need is time

I don't wanna be so shy, uh-uh
Everytime that I'm alone I wonder why
Hope that you will wait for me
You'll see that, you're the only one for me
I wanna believe in everything that you say
Ah cuz it sounds so good
But if you really want me, move it slow
There's things about me, you just have to know

Chorus

Just hang around and you'll see
There's no where I'd rather be
If you love me, trust in me
The way that I......... trust in you

Chorus Twice

All I really want is to hold you tight
Be with you day and night (fade...)

hmm, todae damn hurtin dae...i don deny it...maths common test and Lit common test, dun reali noe how to do at all...dun reali seems to care le...i physically feel so ACHing, every step i walk hurts ba...still i bear wif it... i slept mostly todae, firstly tired le(need REST!)...secondly no interest... thirdly no mood at all lor... haiZ... i reali iz so NO ENERGY...!

after sch, Jie Jie waited fer mi bringin my 3rd jieZ tooo... all left still wait...as i gotta find the damn sec 1s list ...sori kept u 2 waitin fer mi... hmmm, go dere le... Jie Jie no eat... JuZ sat in front of mi doin nth lyk no ENERGY tooo ba...i am quite hungry, Jie Jie no eat den i no eat lor...wanted to cheer her, i cant... am i juZ bein tooo useless...????

i haf been tinkin fer so long den i was lyk tinkin...am i a 'sub'? when u need me...u find mi...when u don, u don even bother bout mi ba...at the bus, seeing u so no energy, restless, sad...it simply hurt mi again(but its nth...)

went home early, been so tired...i juZ throw my bag and sort of juZ fall on the bed and zzZ liao... stressed-up... been veri tired... i had ENOUGH le... i am juZ so numb...tired... fed up... no strength to do aniting more le...pain everywhere...can i end everything ma???!!!

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`Jie Jie`i cant do much... noe i hurt u deeply again... sori...u break down but i couldnt do anything... aren't i a totally useless person ma???hmmm, having me as yr mei mei is juZ tooooo BAD ba... hmmm, cheer up gal... i wanna back the old jie jie which i lyk most... tat's reali my Jie Jie ba... hmm, cheer up gal... pls... don gif up ...! i noe tat i still can believe in hope...no matter how little tat hope is... i will cling to it .... cheerios...!!! sori, mei mei bad...

Tuesday, April 20, 2004

hmm, last few daes reali iz worning mi totally out le...i onli haf tis thing to sae ba"i already had enough..."...i don wanna be involve in ani things le lor... probs occurring alwaes...i'm real tired lor...i wanna haf a long long REST le...tinkin of everything... its juZ bad memories tat i will remember it 4eva & 4eva ba...haiZ...cant be forgotten...

todae we had NAFFA test lor...my results totally sucks...i am onli happi wif my sit-up...my sit and reach 2 more cms den 'A' le lei... i juZ cant do it...my leg reali hurts...i am toooo TIRED le...hmm, wanna sae a BIG BIG sorry to "Honey Rhowena, Jocelyn jie jie and my cat mel mel"...i did dem a big WRONG...

after tat i drag Shan Bei and Agnes all the way to Jocelyn's hse lor... i am reali sick of tis ... dragging dem totally lor...go dere take lyk so long...i real tired... pushin dem at tat time...(but i don tink they even care lor...) sigh... hmm, go dere no tok at all... all ran away...i even go on my knees lor...i chase dem but they juZ lyk tat... i ran out w/o shoes(do anyone still cares...???!!! my foot reali hurts...) hmmm, i dunno wad to say ba... hmmm, ran a long way... ended up lyk tis... suan le...i felt so ANGRY ba...my efforts all WASTED...but Agnes is rite ba... its not my prob at all lor...its veri true...i don wanna care le...

i reali haf nth to sae ba...feelin totally lost... anyone dere to guide mi out...? i reali going to break down soon le...i dunno wad to say...haiZ...

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*lion family* it seems tat we haf real conficts ... can we still a family ma??? i reali hope so...cos u gals reali RAWKS ba....~ mel mel: take care of yrself...owner is SORRY...!

Jocelyn Jie Jie`i haf nth to say ba... juZ sorri...

Monday, April 19, 2004

todae...got cheena test, kept copying 38(Li xian) de...i onli noe 2 words out everything lor...WTH...!suan le...i should ferget it le...as its over...haiZ...nvm ba...hmm, todae upper sec 2.4... we whole lot doin .P.D. sec 2s... den seening lots of seniors ran and ran...haiZ... my HONEY ran untill veri TIRED(honey: u okie le ma...??)hmm, bitten by mosqitoes so mUCH lor.. WTH...

hmm,wadever, i was being LAME ba...all along... went back sch, tio pumping innocently lor... we reali dunno we cant sit on the DAMN stretcher...OIC say so much to us but we REALI REALI dunno lor...WTF... PISSED OFF by OIC...! kept lookin at me onli...no rite to say anything lor...WTF...!haiZ...everyone BLACK face when we came out... actually i felt giddy and dizzy...but told no one...cos i noe no one will care de lor...

hmmm, wadever...i pissed off by everything ba, honestly speakin...stress-up here and dere...wanna juZ cry it all out ba...been suffering silently, painfully, slowly...but no one reali noes it all ba...HaiZ...i'm going CRAZY...i fed up...

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Jie Jie==u okie ma???i worried so MUCH lei... u don even lyk wad lor... i was lyk tinkin wad am i to u???!!! hmm, i cant get over it ...sad... hurt...sorry fer everything...bye bye jie jie...

Sunday, April 18, 2004

hmm, yesterday i busy...hmm, yesterday reali lots of stuff happen...i go fer dm den realised i am part of my honey's commitee... den AOIC vampire wan me help honey lor...den i lyk 2nd IC lyk tat ba...stand dere...the sec 1s reali will qi si wo de...they don even care bout wad i say at all ba...

den AOIC vampire ran to humans IT to find mi... say ms tan wanna see mi...i shocked ba, cos onli mi...den went to the staffroom, ms tan & sir dere... dere say i am IC fer collectin the size of all sec1s & sec2s SJAB tee...by bext sat(24/4/2004) muZ gif her list... printed by computer...haiZ...

den i went back...pass a paper down... so ma fan lor...!they write SUPER slow...wadever...make Jie Jie and 2nd jieZ wait so long, so sori...i called u gals go so MANI times...at last u all still left...my honey Rhowena,Sweetheart ting and mi still continue doin den we change out of the Full-U...den buy drinks den left sch le...den call Jie Jie,she say tat they at KFC... den 2nd jieZ took over den i ask whether den going to A.J mountain ma...she say got lor...den we took a taxi den went dere lor... go dere everyone bout to finished eatin...

den we go find our own tables...sitted dere eatin and tokin... den they lyk take their bags and juZ left in hurry...not even caring bout us except 2nd jieZ(kayan)thx 2nd jieZ...she say not going le...den say dunno wad happen to dem, bye bye...shan bei, shu may... left by front door...Agnes and Jocelyn by the back...juZ left... yvonne and Kayan dunno where( front or back???)

they lyk juZ ps us dere lor...leaving us dere confused...haiZ...i was lyk so PISSED off at tat moment...Honey Rhowena and Sweetheart ting was lyk cooling me off...cos i was lyk TOTALLY pissed by dem...thx ting ting and Rhowena...! we went to eat A.J mountain... haf so much fun...but tinkin of wad happen...haiZ...mi and ting ting was lyk playin wif it... squashin everywhere...Rhowena was lyk...OMG...! den i rush off to mr's sam tuition liao...

hmm, wad happen yesterday...? i'm still super blur...heard tat some CRIED...dunno wad happen... gotta find out....curiousity u noe...haiZ...still pissed somehow... tomolo got cheena test...gotta learn ... bb...haiZ

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Friday, April 16, 2004

hmm, todae...got history common tests...haiZ...2e2 & 2e1 take it liao den my Lion family took down the answers juZ fer us... so SWEET...! 2nd jieZ & 3 jieZ and ah bu thx lei....! u gals reali rawks...! thx...History test... so simple except the one-sentence questions... me already pass le lor... cos my map full marks... lots of ppl oso ... no big deal...

after sch, practise p.m awhile den went J8...wif yee siang, shui cheng, shan bei, zhi ru, 2nd jieZ(Kayan), 3rd jieZ(shu may)(my BUGGER~) and Ah bu(estee)( my lao po)...4h jieZ(Agnes)and Jie jie...and 38 (Li xian )...we took pictures 2 times somemore so FUNI...! esp the 1st time... hahax...hmmm, Agnes and Jie jie no take and tat 38 tooo... haiZ...

hmmm, had a fun time... but i sort of juZ walked away from Jie Jie todae cos bein wif her iz lyk so EXTRA...got Agnes ma, aniwae so she wun be lonely...somemore Agnes so FUNI and LAME surely can cheer her up lots... thx 4th jieZ fer cheerin her up lei...!

went back sch, divide the photos... den its lyk so EARLY... den sudden thinkin... i alwaes go to Jie Jie house waste time ma...den lyk tat lor... i ask Shan Bei whether got extras to gif Jie Jie...den i find a excuse to go find Jie Jie...go dere do my maths den draw my book cos half-way, i juZ fall asleep... hahax... hmmm, den Jie Jie went CRAZY pulling my blouse till my first button was unbuttoned ar... dotZ... nvm... suan le... ending here as my ma ma nagged me liao... don wanna get scolded...cos i tink she's not in a mood todae...

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~Lion Family~ todaes pictures nice lei... except tat the CAT wasn't dere wif us... next time u better be dere...haf fun todae... continue to rawk my world ppl...hahax... thx again fer history.. ah bu ar, disciple yr CHILDREN>>>...!

---Jocelyn Jie Jie aka Si Auntie---hmmm, todae sorrie... fer the past few daes how i treated u...but saying the truth, i believe soon, i will be back to my tis self again de lor.. trust mi...!hmm, thx fer all the happi moments tat u gif me...! and being dere fer mi alwaes... and luving me alwaes... thx Jie...simply all i wanna say its u haf tooooo MUCH good points le... stop saying bad things bout mi at yr blog... gtg le... good luck fer yr oral....! luving u alwaes...! mizz u now...cya jie jie..

Thursday, April 15, 2004

hmm, todae...got cheena oral...haf been veri scare and nervous since i came sch...haiZ...sec4s mass run wif sec3s, happi fer them...hope w/o we sec2s they will be happier ba...hmmm, maths lesson was lyk shit...i joined table wif 38 again(as usual)as mrs wong don mind us...hmm, half way lesson, i see see my phone...1 message receive...i check its "jocelyn jieZ", den i was using my phone at my bag, den mrs wong juZ caught me... scolded me...nag nag me so long... HAIZ!!! Zhi Ru tat time oso but end of lesson return le...i begged mrs wong... she went to 2e1 teach le, den after tat i begged again...

i ran after her, she took the lift...i press press... scold me...i ran my way down to 1st storey to find her dere at 4e2 classroom...she juZ called me go den don care me liao...WTF~messaging got wrong izzit...( got lah ) nvm...

after sch, i beg beg her again, she lyk rushing off lyk tat den she say maybe tml she might return me ba...she den rush off...tml i MUZ go see her...i mizz my phone... ah boi cant msg me, sad sad... jie jie cannot msg me, i doubt she would even care to msg me as tml she got test...haiZ...mizz PHONE...! i needed it real badly...

after sch oral, koh li li took me...haiZ.. she difficult...i tink i failed le... suan le... gotta work hard le lor...den jie jie got NAFA...dunno why mixed feelings whether should i wait or...but still i waited...it means nth aniwae...

i tink when jie jie tok to me, i somehow did lyk dun reali care ba...sorri...hmmm, cos i noe whether i'm dere fer u doesn't reali means much...hmmm, go le den ah bu(estee) waiting fer me lei(so unexpected)...hmmm, me and ah bu was lyk together kept tokin till she left...den i tok to 2nd jieZ(Kayan) hmmm, we tok craps nia...she left...

left me, jie jie and Agnes...they were sitting behind me...tokin and playin...i don even care...as when we three together, i'm alwaes the odd one(meaning the "extra")...somehow i'm juZ toooo used to it le...den i find it pointless to send jie jie aniwae...den i went home...say bye bye, ppl...den i didn't even care to look juZ walk away...tink they don care too...hahas...

hmmm, went home ... sianZ... juZ watch tv... slept half way...hahas...hmmm, i hungry eat eat den jie jie called(when i still left 1 piece of chicken wing...)lame rite...hmmm, its a quiet phone call...and the 2nd line iz juZ 1min38sec...Jia en or the bugger can even wait up to 3 mins...hmmm, gtg liao... dad scold me... mum NAG me...say later and later ar...!wtf...but used to it le...tired of everyday's usual scoldings le...buaiZ...

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Wednesday, April 14, 2004

Vitamin C---graduation

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And we got so blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

(1) - As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

(Repeat 1)

La, la, la, la:
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la:
We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

(Repeat 1 (3x))

hmmm, today morning... went to meet jie jie though she don wan me to meet... still i go... den got one crowded bus came den jie jie juZ went up... den some other ppl juZ cut me... full le... den i juZ walked away... i juZ waved, their jaws lyk juZ drop... but i feel stabbed...........but without any regrets ba... i was nearly almost LATE... met my hoNey rHoweNa on bus, happi to see her... hahax...grinZ...

science test, i tink i fail le... hmm, processes all wrong... haiZ, i got learn lor... juZ tat now the processes...2e2 good lor, my lion family in 2e2 all noe le, easy fer them ba... haiZ...hmm, mrs wong praised me again... she recommended me to go fer the A.M.C den she take Lance out... so i juZ go ba...English lesson, ms kaur kept steppin on my leg lor(7 or 8 times)...the video i slept throughout it lor... the 38 li xian kept hitting me ( calling me up )... den discussion time, ms kaur caught me fer sleepin... juZ stared at me and scold me...

after sch, 2e1,2e2,2e3 got chinese oral...our class is tml...so extra... heard tat iz super hard lor...haiZ, tml gotta fail le...scare lei...hmmm, suan le... don tink so much its better ba...

hmmm, went out wif 2nd jieZ(Kayan), 4th jieZ(Agnes) and Jocelyn to eat den ate long john(again,as usual)...den went to jie jie house... The time wif kayan, i kept tokin to her onli while Agnes and Jocelyn kept playin( as usual )... Kayan left le, i kept all the way quiet ba... bein a extra isn't nice ba( so kept quiet )... haiZ... nvm...gtg learn my upcoming history test le and tml oral... haiZ...buaiZ...gotta to study HARD( try ba...hahax... )

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jocelyn jie jie~hmm, sori... and u nv hurt me hor... let's start sayin thank you to each other intead of sorry... Sorry is meaningless when its said too mani times... hmm, u cheer up... good luck fer yr NAFA test tml ... noe u can do it de lah... fit gal u r.... grinZ( my jie jie ma ) hmmm, sorry got u scolded... stop blaming yrself...cya...smile, gal...

Lion family~comp camp, let's sleep together... it would be real fun... u gals, lurve u gals real much...! hahax... full of lame ideas... esp 3rd jieZ... hahax... ah bu, disciple yr chlidren lahx...hahax...rawks u gals...

sam boi**sori yr bill .. high... my tooo.... maybe let's go out tml... hahax... hope we haf fun... yr maths got probs can ask me kaes... good luck fer yr tml oral... u better do well kaes... btw 4gif xiao qin...hahx... miss yea... bb..

Tuesday, April 13, 2004

Artist: Linkin Park
Album: Meteora
Title: Numb

I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertone just caught in the undertone)
Every step I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertone just caught in the undertone)

I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I've becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

Can't you see that you're smothering me
Holding too tightly afraid to lose control
Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you
(Caught in the undertone just caught in the undertone)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you

(Caught in the undertone just caught in the undertone)
And every second I waste is more than I can take

I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I've becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you

I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I've becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Is everything what you want me to be
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Is everything what you want me to be

today went out wif yee siong, shui cheng, lion family...hmmm, heard tat haf chinese oral on thursday...haiZ...mr tan gif me a lyk letter fer ppl hu iz weak in chinese...onli me and sam boi got it... cos both of us fail chinese... haiZ... tml science test...i cant don even care... wtf...!
when going out... not being wif jie jie iz so weird ba... cos i am alwaes wif her no matter wad lor... haiZ... i feel bad juZ leaving her... wad should i do to make up to her??? i reali dunno...
todae someone msg me fer the first time in 4 months... i quite happi ba... grinz...hmm, tat person reali can cheer me up... dunno why... haiZ... tinkin of myself... wondering now... am i slow or stupid...?! god make me tis way... i cant change myself since i'm reali lyk tat liao... haiZ...
i shall end here as i gotta learn science test...left 17 daes...

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tat person* i still lurve u lots lor... i so happi when u msg me... juZ one msg...
though u dunno i much i lurve u... i reali wanna be together...haiZ... miss yea lots... miss the times together... i should haf cherished the time together... sad...* i dunno if u still lyk me but i reali do... haiZ...

jocelyn jie~ can u juZ be alwaes by our side 4eva... we lyk the way u r lor... if not u not my jie jie le... tat's the real u ba... crappy, talkative, jumpy, funi and l.a.m.e ... if u break down, i will be dere to help u up... if u feel weak, i will help u become a stronger person... we love u lots...alwaes... and 4eva... hope u do better in the rest of yr test... i reali hope u see a smile across yr face... reali... cya, my jie jie...

lion family=-going out u gals reali makes my smile smile ba... lion family will lasts 4eva de... as dere's a bugger and me, ah pa to be yr supporting pillars ALWAES...! u gals rawks, as i sux??????? wad iz tis...?? si mel mel...! cya...

Monday, April 12, 2004

today my first diary entry... left more 19 daes to 30 april...haiZ...they leave liao den no more fun le(esp, jocelyn senior)...sad...hmmm, problems kept happening to me...haiZ...maybe tat's life ba...juZ haf to live wif it...tired mentally and physically, wan a long long rest... next week meaning tomolo...got quite a number is test... got history common test, my mummy say will gif me $10 juZ to pass it...hahax...look down on me, tink i alwaes fail...saving sth fer someone special to me...but now save untill $10 nia...tink its veri l.a.m.e...yesterday didn't go out wif the Lion family... i'm sori, kaes... i go dere den u gals wanna leave...

i mizz comp trainings...i feel veri veri slack and restless tis few daes...dunno why oso...tired mentally and physically... NC6 cant be together again 4eva cos my group consists of sec 3s...maybe next time, i will be wif the sec 1s... now i mizz my veri first group wif li xian and ting ting(wif leong min 2)... the fun time wif our trainer Jocelyn, tat iz my onli group trained by Jocelyn senior...den NC2 rawks~ wif Shek huey,pricilia, Bao ying(alwaes scold me, so FUNI) and ting ting, our trainer Xuan hong senior...our tis team alwaes go out together fer mani things...lastly NC6 rulZ~ got my honey Rhowena, j.e.s(jia en lah...), yvonne and alien(Su min...)lyk tis Rubbish team alot...hahax... though we cry lots and haf lots of conficts...we still win 1st runner up , best home nursing,best footdrill...and my Honey Rhowena win Best leader lei...! love yea ...

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-=Jocelyn jie jie=-hope u wun be so SAD anymore... sori fer not being dere fer u when u r heartbroken... sori fer pushing u to Agnes and Shan bei... sori fer almost everything ba... and sori tat i somehow cant cheer u up...drifting away le, den u can concentrate on yr studies...tis year important lei '0' levels... work hard... remember to teach my maths...thx, jie jie... lurve yea too much...

*~Sam boi~*hmmmm, sori tat i didn't reply yr msgs... cos my bill coming soon den i scare scare...sori lei...hope u dun mind... remember read fer yr tests...history test i havent read so forget about copying mine... ~good luck~

+Lion Famiy+ sori to u gals... cos i alwaes nv go wif u all de... feeling bad 2... SORI lei... u gals, reali rawks...! and sori to 3rd jieZ bout tat....~Lion family rawks 4eva~