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Friday, May 28, 2004

todae in class did nth much lor... ms toh played the movie "My Sassy girl"... it rawks till lots of us all mizz our recess... its a touchin love story... i wanna watch again...! den blah blah... take report book... so lousy... i wun sae bout it... i actually HATE ppl tokin bout it... haiZ... our class lost to all other class in the comp, but we did our best... i noe in our hearts 2E4 will alwaes be the BEST 4eva...!

after sch, went to celebrate XuanHong Senior's birthdae... wish u all the BEST fer yr "0" levels, kaes... todae we played till super messy...plain wif powder... den went to eat eat and play play.... had fun... NC2 and the leader and ass. leader of NC9...

.........:::HAPPI BIRTHDAE:::...........

hmmm, todae when i saw u leavin, i silently sae byE byE... i din even tok to u... i noe u feel down... but i cant do anything to cheer u up... feel hopeless... sorri... i noe u haf been stressed up and down... but dat's life... we gotta look forward... i don wan u to feel down liao, i don wan u to tink bout the past, as u cant do anithing already. i wan u to work real hard fer yr "0" levels... as i don wan history to repeat again........

++++++++GOOD LUCK S* Z** J** J** !++++++

Thursday, May 27, 2004

todae its class comp... beginning my class now unity de... but after awhile our class so kool... me and li xian creatin the white board... den she draw and write names den i started our class messages... so kool...!

den our class gort CHIO BU... is MELINDA LIM MEI LE.... hahas... i gonna laugh till siao...! hmmm, haf so much fun... reali... find dat actually my class is super UNITED... our teachers oso rawks...

..................:::2E4 RAWKS:::................

hmmm, tinkin bout somethings... haiZ ... pulls my mood down so easily... so tired lately... i sort of lyk no strength to do anithing... i wanna be active... but i cant be the same animore... coz i do change fer the better...

3rd Jie]sorri bout wad happen juz now... reali sorri... wad u sae bout me its sort of true... i sucks... sorri....

da Jie{LEE SHAN BEI} let the game continue till the end... cherished the game... i noe u could get to level 12 de ... u even noe the code lor, why hesitated...? ferget bout the past le... start refresh remember... supportin u all the way... takkaire...!

Zhu Jie Jie~ can u juz study now...???? i kept on naggin but u don even care lyk dat... though i noe wad i sae its pointless to u.. i nag u coz i wanna u get into a good course... and i dun wan u to regret AGAIN... study hard pls... Jia You ~ si zhu....


...i sucks totally...

Wednesday, May 26, 2004

hiyee~long time no blog le... mani things happened tis afew daes...i get such poor results... i don wanna tok bout, but my highest marks is onli 55/100 literature... so wad rite... haiz... parents scold lyk siao lor... naggin and scoldin fer the past few daes... den she even took my phone 6610 coz i kept tokin on phone...lots happen lahx...

den ms tan scolded me lyk siao, i almost gort demoted... i cried :'(... don wanna sae so much bout tis... but dat time, my lion family all lyk pissed or no mood or troubled... u all, all cheer up kaes... ah pa will alwaes be dere fer u all...

den i am super tired... me and shanbei is lyk okie le, we punched each other at times, sori fer dat bruised on yr face... hmmm, u don gif up... dere is alwaes a "continue"...

hmmmm, my mother wanna me to cut all my activites after holidaes to study, den i dunno how to tell her dat i wanna join comp again~ haiz... she seems to be so MAD about everything i do... i dunno wad to do... haiz... everydae now, i come home its the same as enterin a nightmare, coz i will get scoldings... i din do anithing, i will oso be shout at lor... haiz...

den i joined GOH... my marchin sux.. more lyk my dressin... hmmm, i am so slacked... can i make it into the selection?? i dunno... maybe not... seniors kept tokin bout my dressings... haiz... ferget it...

todae, went to eat as usual... lion family plus Yvonne and Jocelyn senior... den me and mao mi go wash hands after eatin, one guy came and took my chicken bones and some leftovers awae... dat's wad 3rd jie and yvonne sae... which kinda make me *laugh...

lots of things happened, which sort of change me... i tink i gort a big prob wif myself.. i can suddenly haf mood change.... can tell so easily rite... i tink i changeed pretty lot tooo... haiz...ani comments...??

the world i see, i am in is veri icy cold... i dunno how long i can bear wif the coldness...i gonna endured... i dun wanna lose...

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Lion Family~haf been having a great time wif u gals... u gals cheer up ... smiles okie... and obviously i luv my family and children... kaes... be dere fer u alwaes...

Zhu Jie Jie*i gotta sae, sori bout everything okie.... good luck fer the cheena "o" levels kaes... muz study hard.. don regret...

to all sec 4express seniors::.. i wanna wish u all GOOD LUCK fer everything... study hard....! Jia You~ all the best fer everything...!do well fer yr exams...

Sunday, May 23, 2004

-TROY-


Throughout time, men have waged war. Some for power, some for glory, some for honor – and some for love.

In ancient Greece, the passion of two of literature’s most notorious lovers, Paris, Prince of Troy (ORLANDO BLOOM) and Helen (DIANE KRUGER), Queen of Sparta, ignites a war that will devastate a civilization. When Paris spirits Helen away from her husband, King Menelaus (BRENDAN GLEESON), it is an insult that cannot be suffered. Familial pride dictates that an affront to Menelaus is an affront to his brother Agamemnon (BRIAN COX), powerful King of the Mycenaeans, who soon unites all the massive tribes of Greece to steal Helen back from Troy in defense of his brother’s honor.

In truth, Agamemnon’s pursuit of honor is corrupted by his overwhelming greed – he needs to conquer Troy to seize control of the Aegean, thus ensuring the supremacy of his already vast empire. The walled city, under the leadership of King Priam (PETER O’TOOLE) and defended by mighty Prince Hector (ERIC BANA), is a citadel that no army has ever been able to breach. One man alone stands as the key to victory or defeat over Troy – Achilles (BRAD PITT), believed to be the greatest warrior alive.

Arrogant, rebellious and seemingly invincible, Achilles has allegiance to nothing and no one, save his own glory. It is his insatiable hunger for eternal renown that leads him to attack the gates of Troy under Agamemnon’s banner – but it will be love that ultimately decides his fate.

Two worlds will go to war for honor and power. Thousands will fall in pursuit of glory. And for love, a nation will burn to the ground.

Warner Bros. Pictures presents a Radiant production, in association with PLAN B, a Wolfgang Petersen film, Troy, starring BRAD PITT and ERIC BANA. The film also stars ORLANDO BLOOM, DIANE KRUGER, BRIAN COX, SEAN BEAN, BRENDAN GLEESON and PETER O’TOOLE. A UK/MALTA Co-Production, Troy is directed by WOLFGANG PETERSEN, produced by WOLFGANG PETERSEN, DIANA RATHBUN and COLIN WILSON; the screenplay is by DAVID BENIOFF; the cinematographer is ROGER PRATT BSC; the production designer is NIGEL PHELPS; and PETER HONESS A.C.E. is the editor. Music by JAMES HORNER.

todae i cancelled my cheena tuition...woke up quite late 10.40... hahas... den i take my time as usual... den went down on computer leave it dere... go do my stuffie liao...i went to ken-nah sir the pic gallery... i saw the pic dat he tok wif Jie Jie... i LAUGH till siao... hahas ... hahas...! real funi... den ate a plain lunch... my mother booked the tickets 3 times... the third time den can... as the seats all sold-out liao...

Troy SIMPLY RAWKS...!!!
Achilles (BRAD PITT) Prince Hector (ERIC BANA)

simply luv...~going to watch at Lido... the show starts 5.45pm..
me leavin soon...i am so excited though its my second time watchin...~ i scare i cry again....~ haiZ.... sad....

*-----Sam] todae's alwaes 2nd month... though we cant be together todae... we gort much more time alwaes... Love ALwaes...~my cute boi boi... i will keep yr msg dat u msg todae mornin at 12.00 exactly... hahas...

*-----Zhu Jie Jie] sorri, i cant be perfect to u... cant be good to u... most of all, i wanna THANK u~...

Saturday, May 22, 2004

todae woke up at 9.45 am... blah blah... mother went to work liao... left me and my bro...den ate nasi lemak fer breakfast...went to watch bro play game... until dat Si Zhu jie jie wake up... den took my time to bath and everything... went to her hse... go buy her lunch den went back...

so tirin,no energy in me...den go back to hse watch dat lame cartoon..she kept laughin... happi fer her ba... den she told me wad happen to her and 2nd jie... den after dat,she kept on makin me... haiZ... den went home...

sianZ... is tis the kind of life, i would be havin... i don wan...
ppl started to sae i change alot... i am not the Lion dey use to see me... as i am not dat l.a.m.e, crappy, happi, funi, full of laughter... i am no longer dat... ppl don even tink i am me when i am in msn... few ask if i am reali lion not... den dey sae i change lots... tink i change pretty lot... coz probs here n dere... stress here n dere...

the world outside is cold, i no longer feel ani warmth animore... ppl is against me, ppl take me as i'm invisible.... ppl take me fer nth at all... i cant do anithing ba... guess my pressence in tis world,is juz nth... dat's y,my life line is so short... guess its juZ my destiny... juZ gotta believe in it.... sad :'(...

Monday, May 17, 2004

todae gort maths paper 2...durin the paper,i got gastic pain(pain!)...den i was lyk quite dizzy ba...brains hurts... i going to die fer it ba... i din start on even a question on section B lor... its 13 marks.. and the 8(c) is 4 marks... which i dunno wad to do... den the front few is totally blank lor...WTF~totally PISSED... i pissed myself off..i'm doomed.. tink i will get bout 30 + marks onli or lesser even... arrrr!

den went wif the Lion family, but ended up i din...but at last me and Ah Bu still lyk walk from sch to tp lor...abit crazy ba... (going crazy soon...)den found dem at burger king...den we at last went to K.F.C eat... both of us ate so slowly... kept tokin... haiZ...den.... after eatin,go look dem din find dem at the burger king den we go le... to the card shop... den i was lyk buyin cards den dey came...

den ah bu and i was lyk (SHIT...!)... den we buy le ... den i walk pass Jie Jie, i noe u noe i'm dere... i dunno wad to do ba... juZ walk awae... den blah blah... lots mani here.... shall not crap here le... LONG STORY....! gif my cards all to my nu-ers... 2 and 3 onli... the rest i buy le next time den gif...den walkin to the bus-stop,i saw Jie Jie and Agnes onthe bus... den i was lyk, bye bye u two silently...

den its lyk so early lor, i dunno wad to do.me and 2 jieZ, went up the double deck bus den we lyk tokin craps... den we alite at MRT dere... den 2 JieZ realised her ez-link card dat missin... search search...den i remember dat time when XuanHong senior lost her books too... den we lyk hailed a taxi...hope on den go all the way to Hougang lor...so FAR...! den blah blah, lots happened... den we report lost den we waited fer the bus... den we gort back the ez-link...phew~

den went to take the same bus back ba... such a long trip... den we were tokin so much...den reachd le,so sianZ... bout 1 plus onli...went to central...kept walkin walkin...walk the central twice...called ah bu whether can go her hse,den she sae nope... den we went to 3rd jieZ hse...

play play until so wad lor... haiZ... i left quite late... den blah blah...

went home, haiZ... gotta take food fer bro... den blah blah...went home, mum nag me... den i lyk readin my revision... fer LIt...den when i wanna sleep... my mum nag me sae wanna take my phone coz gort ppl msg me at nite.. den i quarrel wif her as usual... i lyk so STRESS up le, dat i juZ BLAST it all out.... went abit crazy... went to toilet... slamed the DOOR, i lyk juZ punched the basin dere,punched wif my both fists...den my hand is now BRUISED.... so BIG~ and PAin...~ cried so BADLY...

wad can i do???parents are ONE of my BIGGEST proBs~

Saturday, May 15, 2004

hiyee~ few daes no blog le... haiZ ...been BUSY and tired so no blog...sOrI...mani things happen recently... but i shall not write it down ba...
todae... early in the mornin.... woke up bout 8.45am ba... quite early den as usual, i lie dere fer until 9.20am den i start to do my things... haiZ... den i msg my stir ask wad time go Mr.Sam's tuition... blah blah ...she reply me 10.00am drag time ba, i was walkin around the hse dunno dreamin izzit... tinkin of some probs...den bout 10.40am den i go bath den blah blah... i wear brown tee-shirt wif white collar and a half-jeans(so BIG)...

den i took a bus 132 to the "flaming tree" condo dere, den walk all the wae to the place lahx...i was stuck outside the door fer quite some time coZ the "Fat" Chris and "the Brudder 1 bear" yee Siong was playin wif the door den i was lyk stuck outside makin lots of noise as dey wan me to go on my knees b4 dey open the door...den at last open...den tuition again,as usual test papers,do abit den dunno ask Zhiru dear or PeiJing... den do till so SianZ...

i took out discman listen to songs den we all started to sing together, Stir,Step,Yee Siong(out-of-tune),PeiJing and me... den Mr.Sam was lyk sayin we are the new Singapore Idols...den we gort free lunch,thx to Zhiru's mum.eat eat.sing sing.

den afternoon bout 1.45pm, i was not even concentratin at all le. i was playin wif Hp.makin colour papers, den i took out my card, wrote one fer Jie Jie and J.E.S.haiZ!den do do, bout 2.30pm Sal, Peijing and Step wanna go to AMK.den i joined dem along lahx...

we waited at the bus-stop a total of 32mins lor... den PeiJing read the board den see tat the Bus 162 wun be arrivin untill 4.50pm, den its lyk onli 3.20pm...den we walk all the way up to take the bus 166,165,132...the bus oso so LONG lor... waited another 15mins.qi si wo le. WASTE my TIME..!

den we go to hangten coZ step,PeiJing and Sal wanna buy the cheap and nice tee-shirts. i gonna go wif my mum to buy tml;p... den dey were havin a hard time diggin fer shirts lor. throw here and dere.den bout 25mins later den hor, choose finish the shirts. go see Hp, i wanna get 3120,6230 or wadever.den Sal wanna go SengKang and den PeiJing wanna go Hougang. den me and Step went popular lor, after seein dem off. thx step fer treatin me tat pen.but the Light-Blue which is my favourite is no stock.

den i wanna go play arcade as so long no play le, den we went upstairs lor.on the wae up, we saw Xue Qi and dat Aaron together(dunno wad doin dey lahx...)

went to top the card,found out dat i lost my TAPZ... mine is VIP lor. den nearly $500 le lor, den can make MIP card...! den i lyk turn den i saw 2nd JieZ(Kayan) den i knew dat dey r all together coZ Jie Jie tell me. den i was lyk (SHIT). den Step was lyk sayin"Heys! Estee dey all lei...!" den i jUZ sae"pretend dunno dem baZ..." den i played Time Crisis2, died at 2area 3quarter,i lost quite skills le, could play till lyk area 3 the endin den die de.

den went to play drivin . lost of skill in turnin somehow. den step play her para para 2nd mixed,GRATZ dat u can pass the INVISIBLE SCREEN.totally blank sia. PRO lei!den i play the time crisis 3 the gun gort PROB de lor! cant shoot properly de. die so FASt. wo bu fu qi wor!

den back to car again, den i lyk saw dem go, den i was lyk "SORRI" ...Jie Jie, 2nd JieZ,Ah Bu and Agnes... coZ me avoided u gals ba.So obvious!Sorry...haiZ..

den i send Step to the MRT den i walk walk to my granny hse...den i was haiZ... starin at blank space wonderin wad to do...!den i fall asleep den blah blah... woke up seein rain, black skys...den i as usual when i see rain, i dunno why... but it lyk flash back all my sad memories.haiZ. dat's y the reason why i alwaes lyk to get drenched ba,i tink...

haiZ...gort scolded by my parents... sae wad Blah blah... den make me so ANGRY wif dem... i was lyk totally BLACKED-FACE... haiZ... wad happen tome haf i become worst...?!haiZ... i dunno wad to do...can anyone show me the wae to light...???!!!

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~Jie Jie~ i dunno wad to sae.i reali cant bear u de...! reali... sorri dat i hurt u so much wif my decisions made... haiZ... reali... dat promised i made wun change..reali... sorry, avoid u..

Lion FAmily#sorri if i reali reali HURTED u ... makin u gals sad... but u should by now noe wad happen to me le ba rite??? haiZ... hope u gals will stay happi 4eva ba... GOOD LUCK and all the BEST...! nu-ers, i'm sorri .... lao po,dui bu qi..!mel mel,
sorri.. good luck alwaes...

J.E.S~ i make u a card hope u lyk it... pass it to u on moday... GOOD LUCK!

Tuesday, May 11, 2004

todae, was a okie dae... though i am still pretty sad inside me... todae, i reali changed lots, i change my bag and i even take Jie Jie's shoe out, sort of ( i cant believe, i did it ba )... den i nv meet her tooo... come sch SUPER early, surprised quite a no. of ppl ba... haiZ...

den science lesson, kept being disturbed by the 38(Li xian)... but okie lahx, her science better den mine... tat chapter i din even listened at all... so she teach me here and dere... thx 38....!

den P.E partner wif Li Xian play tenis, she oso haf some sad probs lor, den we were takin our anger out through playin...i kept shoutin and throwin the racket here and dere( i'm crazy ) ... den we were DAMN tired... had recess together...blah blah...~

den history... sitting in a NOISY environment again...! HATE it...!
den maths, saw dem both into their eye... they look back, i avoided dem as i movin my table... den playin in maths lesson ba... Li xian kept drawin my hand as i din gif her any sweets...

den History, Mr.J revisin wif us ba... den shared file wif "him" as he no tat paper lor... we were lyk holdin the file together, den soon instead he was hold*** my ****... mr.Choi juZ behind our group standin lor... dotZ...~ferget it...

hmmm... sianZ... i gotta study... Good Luck ppl...! startin EXAMS already ... be sure u ppl Jia You~! gotta learn SI history le... takkaire...

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Jie Jie~ i saw u once onli todae, while i was havin my P.E... Hope u be HAPPI alwaes... w/o me by yr side... but I will nv nv ferget u as my Jie Jie...remain my heart 4eva... we are NOT together ANIMORE but the fact is our hearts are still together... ;)

Monday, May 10, 2004

todae...i am so damn sad ba...i haf no words to decribe todae's feelings...juZ felt totally left out...but aniwae, i don wanna disturb the rest...as i am juZ a person hu is disturbin, a person hu ppl hate, i am a person hu nobody lyks...haiZ... dat's the true me ba...i cant deny ba...reali...

the history lesson make me so FED-UP... my whole group kept on tokin durin the DAMN whole lesson when mr Choi teachin lor, i simply wanna learn but its too noisy... Lyna and Mas tokin... den Wilson and Lance saein jokes to each other... den more ppl came in, Sam and Alvin ... they jokin all the way... den the test completely i dunno how do lor...don understand the whole chapt 12...at tat moment, i reali wanna cry it out...

den recess, cut short till no time, bought a drink... den sit... den i no mood, drink less den half the drink, i juZ throw it into the pail...den walk awae...went to tok tok to my no.4...from far, seein u gals, playin and jokin together...izzit coz when i'm dere den u gals wun be dat happi...???!!

hmmm...haiZ...the rest of the daes, more prob seem to come... dat sucks...i don wanna tok bout it...i reali wanna ferget it all... den again History, no better...den blah blah...

den i went out wif my Stir, Celeste, Zhi Ru, si 38(Li Xian)...and obviously Sam... went to eat eat... but me din eat coz no mood, den Sam boi oso no, he sae no appetitde...ferget it... den after dat all, Me,Stir and Sam went popular...den Sam boi buy me my favourite pen(Pilot black dat one again...) coz i sort of lose another one...den i saw colour pen(blue shiny de...) ask him buy 2... thx boi...! den bought a card fer Jeremiah Du Shunye... coZ tml his Birthdae... dat i pay... den blah blah...
I send Stir home den Sam boi send me home again as usual...

though its a sad dae...my Heart's bleedin in pain...been cryin so much lately... do anyone understand my PAINS ????
i wanna sae...

+++++++++++++++++++++++Happi Birthdae++++++++++++++++++++++
***************=Mas & Yee Siong=****************

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~Jie Jie~ though we went though mani things together, some things which happen between us... make some ppl unhappi as i nv did wad i did sae actually... sae i shall do tat now... seriously... SORRI...!Good luck fer tml E-maths... Juz hope u will concentrate on yr studies and Stay Happi 4eva... while tokin i cried again... so SORRI~

^^Lion Family^^ Hope wad i did is rite fer u gals... u gals reali rawks my world... but somethings cant continue tis way... u c... Good Luck u gals...! stay L.A.M.E and Happi alwaes...!

##Li Xian 38## thx fer alwaes cheerin me up no matter wad... sittin beside me to coach me along the ways... u and yr L.A.M.E jokes reali is good... THX gal... ~smiles ;) ~

`Stir` thx fer everything lei...reali xie xie... fer hearin me out...thx fer all...but while on the phone, i was cryin all along ba...thx fer yr advise...

Saturday, May 08, 2004

todae reali i real remember its .08.05.2004. coz todae sucks fer me...todae early mornin been awoken up coz my alarm i forget to set the time back to normal time...so woke up at 5.50am...kept ringin lor, 3 alarms...press le, went back sleep till 8am, den lie on bed till 8.45am... on computer play... den i download game ar, den i was playin, den i called stir to change the meetin time(10.50am) to 11.45am.... as i surely late de lor... den i select my shirt den my mother scold and nag me, haiZ... coZ i no make the damn bed(dotZ...)...

on my way, i called Jie Jie den tok tok, dunno why i lyk don care bout my bill de lor...nvm tat... den i ran all the way dere to meet stir orelse i surely late oso...haiZ... went to long john den no eat, do my card fer Estee Goh(Ah Bu...) den go pass the card to 3rd jie at popular hu was wif the others...den i go buy a card fer my mother, den stir let me see one card so nice, den i dunno why oso decided to buy fer Jie Jie...so EXP...! spend my $10 till left 50cents ar....si stir buy chocolates...nvm...

rush go tuition,chris was lyk keep disturbin me lor,i dunno how to do my maths...den i lyk totally stressed-up over dere...den Chris use the rubber band kept shootin me lor, so damn painful...den he lyk shoot my neck lor...den i lyk stand up slam my whole bag, scold all %$^$&^&$!....! den lyk sit down cry so much...i tis few daes already lyk stress up over tis and tat and sad over several things... den i juZ cry it all out...! damn Chris...!Stir,doggie,sal,wan ching, papaya, lala monster was consoling me, thx u gals...

den me and Stir went to buy food as we haven haf lunch and is already 2++pm le...den the shop closed lor... den we starvin all the way... haiZ... fate?
den i lyk totally no mood to study,den i was lyk doing the card fer Jie Jie...haiZ...try my best, my handwriting totally sucks to the core lor... stir and my dog was lyk teachin me how to write nicely... den do science instead of the damn maths...see maths will make me totally stressed-up...coZ i don even noe how to do...

den 3.45pm, mr sam sae close shop le... den me and Stir rush to the damn library...den ask Stir pass the card to Jie Jie...den quite a no. of dem was dere...haiZ... den ah bu took out her new phone, nokia 6230...me and Stir went "siao"...den the DAMN librarian hor, recorded our damn NAMES... school... our class 2e4 he hear untill 4d, he reali can GO TO HELL... i lyk totally bu suai lor the way i tok... me and Stir juZ leave the DAMN library kept scoldin and scoldin...WTF lor~... den we went to eat ice cream to cool down... den we met 2e1 peijing, Jia Min and Pricilia(ah ma)... den we went popular lor... den we walk walk den at last i send dem all home, den walk home...i from the time i left the library scold until i send stir home... thx Stir lei, fer hearin me out...

den i lyk so mani ppl msgin me lor... den Kayan called me, ah bu and 2nd jie lor, den i feel so bad... den while tokin to dem... i cried again...coZ they TOTALLY INNOCENT! den they were dragged by me... den frenZ r the lyk the closest thing to heaven... den they r Lion Family de... quite closed...den i cause it ALL! so F***ed-up wif myself...! I'm reali reali SORRI! ...

had no mood to eat though nice dishes.... den i told my mother, den she told me the webby to go complaint... den i hurrying to go home... went home... on computer i complaint to the National Library Board tis...

"Dear Sir/Mdm,
Today I was at the library. I was talking pretty loud and that librarian asks the whole group of my friends to take out my student pass. I am the only one at fault but he recorded our names, school and NRIC no. down. He is a malay guy, quite old. I find that he acts without thinking and totally unreasonable. He said:"I have been observing us for very long.". But the fact is I have only reached there about less than 10 minutes. I really hope you would do something about this. As I am the only one at fault but he recorded everybody else who were all very innocent as they wasn't at fault."

i complaint twice... i reali SO ANGRY lor... den i tink todae's juZ not not my dae at all lor... i cried again... at niteZ... i reali so DAMn pissed off coz of myself... i reali so DAMN pissed...! can someone tell me wad to do? i so TIRED liao!

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~Jie Jie~ hope u lyk tat card, i noe it isnt nice at all... but tat's the veri best i could do... and its lyk not even yr fault lor... its i hu alwaes bring bad luck to everyone... its NEVER u...! Sorri... hope u r okie.... cheer up, jie Jie... smiles...

#Kayan & Estee# I reali reali SORRI... i couldnt do anithing...i reali drag u both into tis trouble...its all my fault... even if u 2 wanna hate me fer life, i cant deny anything... JUZ A BIG BIG SORRIE >.<... (ah bu, happi MOTHER's DAE! hope u lyk the card...) sorri fer causing u two tis...

+Lion Family+ u all no nid to sae anything de... i owe u all a apology... SORRI , Lion Family... sorry...

*Stir*thx fer accompanyin me all the wae... so SORRI to ask u go library... drag u inside... so SORRI...! and thx fer everything, u done fer me...

Friday, May 07, 2004

todaes... iz damn cheena, i onli read chapt 10,11,12 lor... haiyo, i so mani words dunno how to write... reali... todae, my family was lyk don reali care me lor,sae good luck iz lyk i wanna kill dem lyk tat... wad happen? izzit, my fault again? u all shake hands wif everybody lor, except me... did sth reali happen?wad's wrong wif me again? den i lyk shake le doggie's hand(zhi ru) den Somebody from behind sae,u promised me de lei(i was lyk tinkin, promised wad?not to ever wish me good luck, or even a hand shake...) she's suckin yr luck... den dog was lyk cleanin her hands lor...i feel so LEFT OUT... reali... i dunno wad to do... mel mel, 3rd jie and even 2nd jie lor , don even wanna haf a hand shake wif me... WTF lor! i feel so LEFT out... should i lyk juZ go awae from dem...

they go out lor, din even tok or ask mi lor, onli my ah bu, i guess she's still the BEST(happi mother's dae...!)...does the fault lies wif mi agaiN??ah bu told me over the phone tat u all going out tml, none of u even care... does tat mean i am outta the family... ferget it.... i'm sorry ba...

went out wif all.... but went out wif yi siang, sam, stir... go eat, and buy gifts... thx boi fer treatin me everyting.... yr siang:yr hse quite nice lei... nvm ...
i dunno wad to do... find tat all faults lies on mi... ARRRRRRRRR~how? i wanna change it lor....ferget it... sad and boring dae... i dozin off le... bb...love alwaes...!!!!!!!!!!!

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Thursday, May 06, 2004

i look so L.A.M.E and crappy lor... but inside i am lyk stressed up... the rain reminded me of all my sad times lor... haiZ... i dunno wad to do... ferget it...

my english is DOOMED lor... i no TIME to finished it ... 12.06pm, i doin juZ at my summary, 12.14pm muZ collect paper le lor... den still got cloze passage, modified cloze and editing which i haf not done lor... 30 marks lor, tat three sections... i lyk go CRAZY... finished everything in 5 mins... OMG lor...! i din even read the passages at all... believe it or not... GOTTA fail.. i guess i could onli pray HARD enough... haiZ...

tml cheena, doomed le...gotta learn liao... byeZ....

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Jie Jie~when i received tat msg of yrs, telling me to replaced u.... i jUZ cried... i couldn't believe it lor... reali... sorry, i guess i am juZ a real burden in yr life... all is regrets in my heart, fer coming into yr life... SORRy... cant help u much... i'm juZ a prob to u ba....but u will ALWAES be remembered and dere is alwaes a space fer u , in my heart... 4eva... no matter wad...

Wednesday, May 05, 2004

mani things happen...it sort of sadden my life... i juZ dunno wad to do... i honestly honestly feel so STRESSED... wif everything... ppl kept askin mi whether i'm okie... i juZ sae i'm fine.... nothing's wrong... thx u gals, noe u care fer mi... i reali DAMN tired... no energy fer aniting... reali... i was tinkin if i did fall down one dae... will i stand up again? will i? i dunno... tml English paper... good luck ppl...~! i tink i wun do well...
I'm Sorrrriiiieeee... fer be SAD... and sort of dead... but i cant help it... reali... if onli someone out dere could juZ pull mi out... Life so Numb... i feel lost... feel tat i haf lost my sense of my own existence... i don reali feel much... haiZ... i wanna be out of my misery... when will tat happen? i feel so WEAK... Useless... Hopeless... cant help much... the feelin is not good ... haIZ...~ gotta study meaninglessly...byeZ... all the BEST to all... including mi... haiZ...

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Saturday, May 01, 2004

todae been online so LONG, as usual... haiZ... sianZ... den i went to granny place... den i on the way decided to go to popular to buy card holder fer all my pictures.. den i met Serene , Ivan, Wei liang and Han Fan... tok awhile ba... but i in hurry, take card holder le den i go queue le... den i waited quite long lor.. someone juZ sae " hi.... Lynette...!" i juZ turn ... den i saw "him" the person which i have not seen fer bout 5 months le..my jaws juZ drop till so big lor.... sort of missed "him"... after saein tat "he" turned and walked away le... i kept noticing him... "he" didn't reali change much, still lyk wearin orange tee-shirts... and tat messy hair of "his"(grins)... but "he" change his spect... to thicker... (more ugly) but still okie... "he" last time at taller den mi by half a head... now "he" is one head taller... so COOL...! hahax... we havent been msgin each other lately... i reali wished i could be wif "u" again... lyk be4... used to do everything together in primary sch... used to haf our childish fights(u alwaes lose mi wan...)i will NV NV ferget those daes.. 4eva... REALI THX FER THE "LUFVE" u given mi... i reali appreciate it all lor... seeing u makes mi ... i juZ dunno how to describe it ba... hmmm... i WILL NV NV ferget those daes when we go out together... watch movies... walk walk... and LOTS... esp the ARCADE... which u alwaes bring mi to.... simply mizz "u" and those daes... thx "U".................. hope my lufve fer "u" would nv change though i maybe wif someone esle... and i hope yr heart will NV change toooo.... but those daes wun be back, they r good memories which will stay inside the both of us... alwaes and alwaes ....! LOVING YEA!
dere's lots i wanna tell "u" but i dunno how... i dun dare call ... though i used to do tat... fer every single small thing.... mizz yea...


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todae wake up so early coz gotta meet at amk mac bus-stop at 6.20am... go dere so late lor bout 6.25... den i not lastest... hmmm... damn pd...at sin ming blk 25... hmmm... waited fer the P-D-O.. so long... den i so lucky the first station lor... den i first to get on the ambulance... den go 1 round den pick up the rest of the ppl...haiZ... tired u noe, standin dere...

den back le hor, mi and 2nd jie stationed together lor... we two together DAMN lame lor... we take the lucky draw ticket get it stamped(supposed to lyk skip afew, shoot the ball, spin the hoop) we juZ get stamped... four times, can get drinks...those instant tat type lahx... den 2nd jie tio cereals one, need hot water to drink it... i get barley, no need hot water.... den we both so lame, take a bottle tat pour into it...den drink actually its not bad lor... hahax... 2nd jie, u reali can cheer mi up~~gal...

den we share wif the rest, u noe, thx to mi... lots of things happened... but sianZ to tok bout it... but i learnt tat there is the musical C.P.R... so LAME lor... haiz...

after tat, NC2 went to heren to take photos... twice... had some fun ba... me, vivien, ting2, bao ying, shek huay, pricilia... had quite some fun...

todae i rarely tok to u...decided to slowly drift apart from u .... w/o u realisin... but don tink u would even care ba... todae see u lookin so happi and lame wif Shan bei and Agnes.... good fer u...! stay happi... good luck fer yr exams...! i will be watchin over u alwaes... all the BEST...!

i so TIRED le... need a break, man...` things r not goin smoothly fer mi even once.... guess tat's all decided by FATE ba... cant change it... destined... shall end here liao... byeZ...

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